stoning....

i feel kinda upset. i dont know why...
its just so different. i know i am sensitive. perhaps over- sensitive or paranoid... but it just hurts.

HOHO today no need to help out at the restaurant. Its Christmas!!!! HAPPY MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!!!

slept at 3 plus woke up at 12 plus in the morning and it felt like it was morning. here in japan, the sky becomes quite dark in 5 plus evening.. it seems like 9 plus at night in singapore.

my brother brought us to go shopping today. it was so much better than going shopping ourselves or with my father. cause he knows exactly what kind of things we would like. i spent a lot today.... DIE... my heart is bleeding... zzzz sigh. cant spend so much.. i feel so guilty.. never mind. i shall save more in the next few months even though the pocket money i get for this trip is separated from the normal ones....

bought a sunglass, quite nice... bought a super nice watch! the design is good and its very unique. about 4000 yen..T.T

bought a pencilcase too!!!!!!!!!!!! damn cuteeeeeee WAHAHAHA gonna show off when i am back.

bought a pair of chopsticks too, it comes with a spoon and a fork. my brother bought for me as christmas present! i am gonna use those whenever i am out.. haha be environmental friendly =)

shopped a lot today. the things here are so creative! they are sold in abundance and all very unique and different...totally cool.

wanted to take photo but too embarrassed.. haha

guess all my friends are having fun together........


anyway, jolene, i bought a pair of slippers for u.. scared that size cant fit you...japanese style. quite cute =)

k... thats all....

yesterday went to sing k with my mum, cheuling my brother and an uncle who works as a chef over here... we sang from 11 plus till 3 plus in the morning!!

the karaoke room over here is quite cool.. so much better than those in singapore. sadly, they have chinese songs but without its MV. it was so boring without MVs!!!

and i realised something... my brother sings really well!!! super well... he can be a singer OMG. i am sooooooo impressed. =D

haha. so fun. my mum just took off to singapore.... hmmm......

k shall go off now byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

i feel really unsure of how he really is as a person. there s just this fear. perhaps i am not going to try to know anymore... i just loathe doing this kinda thing. perhaps i would just wait for people to find out. he s like a both bad and good person.... i am afraid to take the risk to follow him. its like. no way for me....

anyway, i really like my brother. half-a brother.. he s so good at cooking! he seems so cool and cute when he helped out cooking at the kitchen. hahaha. oh well, seriously, if we werent siblings i may have fallen in love with him..

he seems grown up compared to last time.. mature and sensible. I am quite impressed.. theres lots of things i kinda need to learn from him... haha perhaps i am still too dependent on people....

i was asked whether i should study with him over here.. something which i have thought bout.. to escape.. but this is just not sensible. i still have many questions in mind..

he told me about his plans.. how he s gonna rent a room with his friends, take up a part time job and study at the same time and so on... everything seems so well planned.. i hardly thought of this before.. maybe cause i am a coward, i am still so well protected...

so many things running through my mind now...



- it snowed a few days ago.... so freezing cold...
the things here damn expensive lah! clothes all winter type.. cant really buy anything. bought a hard rock jacket and a japanese style bag. bought some souvenirs for my frens too. and something for jolene! so afraid that that size may not be able to fit hers. walaoo.... waste money lor like that.....zzzz

anyway the things here are expensive. but for the people here i guess its not. cause normal people take up part time job... their salary is super high compared to those in singapore! 900 yen per hour which is like 15 sing dollars per hour!!!!!!!!!!!!! zzz

k lah thats all for today.

life in japan

Hey... i am in japan now. using their laptop.

a lot to blog about. but i don't have the time... this laptop is freaking hard to use, all in japanese...

the girls here are..... W.O.W. i guess 97% walking on the streets actually did LOTS of make up eg eyeliner, mascara, fake lashes, powder and lip gloss...... O.M.G and their hairstyle, 98% dyed their hair. they love brown, those caucasian brown... the guys' hairsyle are freaking long, some look like LIONS......their hairstyles are no different from girls....

I was told that tokyo teenagers are different from osaka. Osaka s are more wild... and surprisingly, people from Osaka and those from Tokyo cant really get along well... its like their cultures are different.... omg. i have lots of things to talk bout..

here, we look like some beggars with no make up skills from some countryside HAHA. even the auntie who sells food at the stall on the street actually did make up!!!!! even old man trimmed their eyebrown and old woman did make up and wear leopard skin jacket with high heels. WTF sia.

For the first time in my life i feel so low-spirited and no confidence in terms of my look..... zzzz i look quite pretty lo.... but here its like ............. a pile of dung. zzzzz

hahaha OH whatever. at least i look pure and innocent over here, unlike them, so fake... HAHAHA. my half-brother told me that when he actually saw some of them without make up he was shocked with their actual look.=D SO, i shant feel so demoralised.

haha thats all.. blog more next time. miss me people =)

stupid cheuling. say what 11 plus go out now she s still sleeping like a pig!!!!

zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

i am so bored

Feeling exhausted.
Emotionally and physically.

Can't wait to go back to Melaka. to see my dearest grandparents and my aunts.. to EAT, of course..

and to get out of this place for a while.
Stop crying. Be contented.Seriously.

2 more days.
ACSI water polo match tomorrow.
NPCC BBQ on Sunday.

=D

Today water polo training was quite fun, not tiring. =) but I was so upset by myself.. i didn't cut my nails and I scratched renee a lot, A LOT. she s really badly scarred. I feel so so so sorry for her..... hais. totally spoil my mood for the day.

Anyway, I am going back to melaka next week for 3 days. so happy =) never go back during this holiday, i feel so.... =(

I cried a lot today. Just finished watching this drama recommended by Leslie. He didn't tell me the ending was bad. I was so upset by it.. really hate dramas with such ending, it's like 'Stairway to Heaven'. I am still dwelling on the ending.. =(


So this is the drama........ I think Hu Ge is very suitable at acting in olden times. suits him a lot. =)



This is the song from the drama! i like! but again, its very sad..... I am quite sure I am going to get emo for a few days before I completely get over with this drama.

阿桑 一直很安静

空荡的街景想找个人放感情
做这种决定是寂寞与我为邻

我们的爱情像你路过的风景
一直在进行脚步却从来不会为我而停

给你的爱一直很安静
来交换你偶尔给的关心
明明是三个人的电影
我却始终不能有姓名

你说爱像云要自在飘浮才美丽
我终於相信分手的理由时候很动听

给你的爱一直很安静
来交换你偶尔给的关心
明明是三个人的电影
我却始终不能有姓名

给你的爱一直很安静
我从一开始就下定决心
以为自己要的是曾经
却发现爱一定要有回音

我们的爱情像你路过的风景
一直在进行脚步却从来不会为我而停

给你的爱一直很安静
来交换你偶尔给的关心
明明是三个人的电影
我却始终不能有姓名

给你的爱一直很安静
除了泪在我的脸上任性
原来缘份是用来说明
你突然不爱我这件事情



Another very nice song.. i am addicted..



Sigh.

I am so sad.I cried. I don't understand the ending. LESLIE OWES ME AN EXPLANATION. =(

SAD and HAPPY

VEry pissed. Thanks Leslie har! Introduced me to watch 仙剑奇侠传. I went to watch the third season one. it's a different story to the one he wanted me to watch. Now I do not have the last episode to watch! OMG. what an agony to half complete a drama serial. WTH.

Anyway, this drama is quite nice. but it's just way too modern with the weird funny sound effects in a medieval period in China...



Part of the story is about this lovely couple in the heaven, a tree goddess Xi Yao and celestial general called Fei Peng. He did something wrong and was punished by the celestial emperor and thrown back to the human world. With that, the man gone through many lives, forgetting who he really is and of course, his loved one Xi Yao. Xi Yao was so heartbroken and upset and lonely. She waited for him for years. She decided to send a celestial fruit which she has taken thousand of years to grow and taken care of, to the human world in search of her loved one. With her wishes and longing for him, the fruit ultimately formed a human life and a girl with the same look as her began her new life in the human world. This girl s called Xue Jian.

the story ends up Xue Jian and Jing Tian ( Fei Peng human's name) fell in love with each other. They found out their reasons in the human world and Jing Tian met Xi Yao, the tree goddess in the heaven. But sadly, he doesn't love her anymore. He loves the girl who Xi Yao created for him..
and Xue Jian is not the goddess but a completely different person..

so.. this is a big sacrifice for her, the tree goddess. She has to give up him and let the new couple be happy.. I am really upset by the storyline lah. wth. touching but it's like sucks........... =(

hais.

Okay. Now I am gonna watch the correct drama which Leslie wants me to watch. -.-

Went out to have lunch with Cyn Chuming and Edwin after mass dance practice!
Mass dance quite hard to remember dance steps leh! Plus I can't really do running man =(

Anyway Cyn got a pair of coloured contact lenses too!! HOHO! Hers is light brown or yellow. More conspicuous and alien. HAHA. mine's grey, not very obvious but mine nicer! =D

Wonder when can yiai have lunch with me......




Chatted with Jin Yang for really long today.

Half a brother. Same age. It's weird. But knowing that both of us are similar in some ways, I feel.. blessed and happy in a way.
Maybe he does understand. Maybe he's not like him. Maybe he's just like me..

I am happy.
and I am looking forward to know more. =)